There is that feeling that suddenly speaks to your thoughts making you realize things that once never crossed your mind.
Perhaps lost in previous sentiments and emotions - that part suddenly awakens. Makes you rethink of the mistakes (charged to moments of brief craziness) or may not even be termed 'mistakes' when it evokes certain feelings of happiness, fun and experiences that help you build those bizarre but memorable memories to last your lifetime.
It's when you reach a point where those things that used to affect you barely even registers as a blip in your sense's radar if at all. It's as if you have become someone new or somebody deleted portions of your brain and emotions that would otherwise succumb to the longing, or the anxiety, the stress or whatever other emotions that once make you decide that living is akin to sweet torture.
But it can only be a matter of time when you may realize that this realization or 'epiphany' may just be a repression of emotions and sentiments given the circumstances. And that a month or two from now things may be different and it would then be up to you to realize this or if it sets you up towards more dumbfounding things.
And yes, it now occurs to you that the mere realization that you've reached a point of realization may soon lead to more confusion and ultimately a lot of wild, sensational (though not necessarily unwelcome) emotions.
