Sunday, February 21, 2010

three o'clock UNHABIT

this was posted on my FB notes last Tuesday, February 16, 2010 at 1:13pm

What’s in the wee hours of the morning? 3:00 AM to be exact. I ask this because for the past 5 or 6 months now, I’ve been waking up at exactly those hours between 3am to 4am. It never fails, even if I’m dead tired, had one too many drink or even when I sleep later than usual, I still find myself jolted awake at around that time for no particular reason at all. There wasn’t even any noise or distinct sound that would rouse me from my sleep but still it happens. I know this might be a case of my insomnia working overtime or probably a loose system on my body clock, whatever that means, but it is somehow affecting my moods not to mention my waking moments. In fact, because of this internal alarm system that seems perennially set at 3 in the morning, I get up from bed in the morning feeling sluggish after being interrupted from slumber pre-dawn.

I would definitely welcome your suggestions. Anybody who can offer me a cure to this strange malady is sure to be appreciated. And yes, I’ve already tried a lot of things to resolve this but still it happens even when I am in my most relaxed state of mind. In fact, it got so annoying that there came a point when I almost believe somebody is playing some voodoo magic on me. I even tried sleeping as late as 2:30am but still found myself suddenly awake between 3 to 4AM, right on schedule. Now, what gives? I don’t want to necessarily think about this and somehow has even learned to live with it but my curiosity is now getting the better of me.