Realization - May (or may not) Rhyme with Confusion

There is that feeling that suddenly speaks to your thoughts making you realize things that once never crossed your mind.

Perhaps lost in previous sentiments and emotions - that part suddenly awakens. Makes you rethink of the mistakes (charged to moments of brief craziness) or may not even be termed 'mistakes' when it evokes certain feelings of happiness, fun and experiences that help you build those bizarre but memorable memories to last your lifetime.

It's when you reach a point where those things that used to affect you barely even registers as a blip in your sense's radar if at all. It's as if you have become someone new or somebody deleted portions of your brain and emotions that would otherwise succumb to the longing, or the anxiety, the stress or whatever other emotions that once make you decide that living is akin to sweet torture.

But it can only be a matter of time when you may realize that this realization or 'epiphany' may just be a repression of emotions and sentiments given the circumstances. And that a month or two from now things may be different and it would then be up to you to realize this or if it sets you up towards more dumbfounding things.

And yes, it now occurs to you that the mere realization that you've reached a point of realization may soon lead to more confusion and ultimately a lot of wild, sensational (though not necessarily unwelcome) emotions.

Shadows At Midnight

There it was, as I lay awake again

A figure hovering in the dark

“What could that be?”

This question I always ask.

It certainly looked that way,

An image of him I see

But how? When he is far away,

Over the land of the rising sea.

Still, rather than conjuring scary images

Of restless souls and ghouls that creep

I know this sight I now behold is just the power of his thoughts,

of longing to be with me despite our distance so I smile and just fall back to sleep..

(This is a poem I wrote more than 5 years ago. Whew! can't believe this year's almost halfway since I lost posted. I probably would be actively blogging again. Let's see where this leads).